People has revealed an exclusive excerpt from Will Smith ‘s memoir Will in this week’s issue. This book is expected to be released by the 53-year-old male star on November 9. In the shared excerpt, the Men in Black actor has revealed his family’s secrets, including a childhood filled with traumatic memories related to his late father – Mr. William Carroll Smith Sr. .

Will Smith reveals never-before-seen sides of himself through new book

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At the beginning of the book, Will Smith reveals he has a complicated relationship with his biological father. He and his wife, Caroline Bright, raised the famous actor and three other children together in Philadelphia (USA). The Hollywood actor said his father was a violent, alcoholic and often abused his wife. When he was a child, the Bad Boys star once witnessed his father beat his mother and that dark memory forever stuck in his life. The veteran artist recalls: “When I was nine years old, I watched my father hit my mother on the head until she collapsed, I saw her spit up blood. That bedroom moment was perhaps more memorable than any other in my life and defined who I am.”

For Will Smith, that memory has influenced his entire life and career. In everything I’ve done since then, every award and title, spotlight and attention, characters and laughter – contains a string of words. I deeply apologize to my mother for my inaction that day. For being a loser in that moment. For having failed my father. For being a coward.”

The actor born in 1968 confided in the Will Smith that people often see – the main character in action movies, a great movie star , a meticulously crafted and honed character, actually just a character. cover to hide the cowardly person hidden deep inside.

Will Smith silently carried his hatred towards his biological father for decades

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Will Smith’s parents separated when he was a teenager and officially divorced in 2000. According to the movie star Aladdin , his father was an alcoholic, violent but always supportive, watching matches. , plays, roles, musical products… of his son. Despite being an alcoholic, this father is always sober when attending the male artist’s new movie premieres. He is the spiritual terrorist of the family but also the one who feeds that family.

Although maintaining a good relationship with Mr. Smith Sr. but the actor admits in his memoirs that smoldering anger formed from his childhood experience surfaced decades later, as he cared for his father who was battling cancer.

The popular male star recounts: “One night, when I gently pushed his wheelchair from the bedroom to the bathroom, a dark thought arose in me. The path between the two rooms passed through the top of the stairs. As a child, I always told myself that one day I would avenge my mother. That when I’m old enough, when I’m strong enough, when I’m no longer a coward, I’ll kill him.”

The veteran actor recalled the moment he intended to kill his father: “I stopped at the top of the stairs. At that point, I could shove him down and walk away easily. After decades of prolonged pain, anger, and resentment, I decided to step back again. I shook my head at the thought and continued to take my father to the bathroom.”

Freed from unhappy memories of his childhood family, Will Smith has built a home for himself

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After Mr. Will Sr. who passed away in 2016, Will Smith reflected on their turbulent relationship and realized that the past taught him how to find true happiness. “Nothing you get from the material world can bring you peace of mind or satisfaction… In the end, no matter how much people love you, you will only find smiles based on how much you love them,” he wrote.